Where's the Outrage?!?

*Sigh*..........

It's no secret to me that the lives of white people are valued more than the lives of POC (people of color) in Society but that doesn't numb the stinging feeling I get whenever I see another example of this.

On Friday, September 26, the end of a week in which thousands of copies of Obsession: Radical Islam’s War Against the West — the fear-mongering, anti-Muslim documentary being distributed by the millions in swing states via DVDs inserted in major newspapers and through the U.S. mail — were distributed by mail in Ohio, a “chemical irritant” was sprayed through a window of the Islamic Society of Greater Dayton, where 300 people were gathered for a Ramadan prayer service. The room that the chemical was sprayed into was the room where babies and children were being kept while their mothers were engaged in prayers.

Huh, I'd really would love to hear why the Media hasn't been going ape shit crazy over this? This has obviously has a lot more to do with religion than race but I guess the victims of this weren't "American" enough to warrant attention. If this had been a Christian church being attacked by any other group this shit would be making laps around the media circle.

.....sigh

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So Many Questions

Solve Sundsbo

When you look at this picture what do you see?
I see a beautiful face made up of mostly fake parts, but beautiful all the same.
When you see this picture, why does it have to mean (to most) that you need to match? Why can't you both be beautiful in your/her parallel fake/real worlds?

I mean, it's no secret to anyone how make believe this make up on her face is. But you (probably) still want to match. Why?

Why does the fact that men prefer 10 instead of 2's make anyone feel better? Why is my satisfaction and self-love being defined by men and fake women in the media?

I thank my mother (in all her underwear dancing glory) for loving herself so I could love me.

Just some random (or not so random....) thoughts and my attempt to get them down somewhere before they scattered off.

Adbusters

Dear Valentina (stop wasting your own time)

I have a serious issue of not giving myself the chance to do well in school by holding myself back. I do this by procrastinating (to the absolute last minute). I don’t do homework, I don’t study, I don’t go to class. Which equals a hell lot of bad marks, failing marks, and me having to sign a contract now to go back to Westdale. (Contract as in something saying I won’t miss classes etc. or I get kicked out.)

The fact that I have wonderful parents is only more evident because instead screaming and yelling at me like I think I deserve, we’re talking about what I’m doing wrong and what I need to do to stop and succeed in school.

What I need to do is stop procrastinating. No more I’ll start in 30 minutes bullshit. I’m too smart for this and most of the time I’m just anxious about doing the work so I avoid it. What I need to do now is establish a routine and stick to it and get used to working first and playing later. Another push in the right direction is to put this whole thing up somewhere public so I’m more inclined to accomplish all this.

Wish me luck. And people who know me, say the word procrastinate whenever you see me procrastinating, please.

Goals to achieve by the end of the summer
-start cross stitch return beads
-have my room tidy and organized
-organize French and science binder
-have my sleeping pattern in order (bed by 11:30, waking up by 6:30am)

Goals to achieve during school year
-maintain a 85%-93% average
-balance extra curriculars with school
All year long responsibilities
*classics
*semi-passive member of triune
*rugby 2nd semester
*school newspaper?
*volunteering with journalism related things
*working on weekends
*Model UN
*my blog
-start saving money for Romania trip (Photography/Journalism summer '09)
-maintain a healthy sleeping pattern

Temporary Responsibilities
-Improvathon
-Keep the Beat
-Halloween volunteering

Hypocrisy?

I had a very..... startling and upsetting thing happen to me this morning on my way to summer school.

I was walking along York to SJAM and this guy starts talking to me;

Random Guy: I wish it was 1950 so you would be considered the nigger that you are instead of me, nigger.
Me:.................................................................................... >_> (wtf?)
Random other guy getting into his car: I'm sorry that you had to deal with that. It's ridiculous.
Racist guy formerly known as the random guy: *somethingsomething* (I was too far away at this point to hear everything) shut the fuck up! *something something*
Random other guy: Yeah whatever keep living that good life you have**, you faggot!
Me: T_T

That was first time in my entire life I've ever been talked to like that. Every other form of racism that I've dealt with has either been patronizing-passive aggressive (a certain someone being surprised I could read) or has occurred behind my back so I'm not aware of it.

After I calmed down I started replaying the whole "conversation" in my head. Why did that guy find it so revolting to see me being called a nigger, but find it appropriate to the situation to call that racist guy a fagget? Nothing in our three way pseudo conversation was anything said to lead either of us to assume that racist guy was homosexual. But nice-random-guy threw the word fagget out there as an insult?

Hmmm...... it's frustrating for me because "gay" has become the favorite new adjective (alongside others like "sick" and "emo") to be re-branded. So now instead of meaning either happy or homosexual, "gay" is an insult or meant to describe something or someone that is stupid.

It seems we as a society have moved on from targeting black people (at least in the open with no "repercussions") to gay people. Not to say that black people aren't being targeted because regardless of what a lot of people think or say, racism (sexism etc.) is alive and kicking. 50+ years from now we'll have moved on to some other group of people that are different from what is perceived as the norm.

Also I'm guessing that some people who know me are wondering why I didn't cuss that ignorant fool out. Well at the time I was just left utterly speechless. But looking back on it now, even if I did react I still don't think I would have said anything. I don't know if that person is drunk or high or has a weapon on their person. Too many people have dedicated their entire lives and poured their sweat and blood to give me the opportunities I have, for me to be wasting my time on an ignorant fuck, who wouldn't have been "enlightened" regardless of any witty come backs I would have thrown his way. I don't have time for that bullshit.

**=this was obviously a sarcastic remark since this guy looked like a strung out bum.

Wide Eyes Shut............apathy at its best

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Hmmm.. good way to start off an entry, I know. But that's the shortest and most articulate way that I can show you my perticular feelings towards apathy. Teenage apathy to be specific. I just finished having a conversation with my friend Diana while reading through some Adbuster magazines at Central and it was relieving to see someone besides myself left agape at how "out of it" my peers are. A lot of teens seem to only see one or more of the following things:

1. validating themselves or their egos through objects or through "opinions" of others (or through their school marks)

2. School (studying for exams, finishing one of a 100 things)

3. Social Events

4. The new episode of ANTM or Girlicious

5. Latest gossip in school

..............................

>_> It does not help that most of my peers come from homes with parents that are exactly the same. Except they confuse "information" with "knowledge" and "knowledge" with "wisdom" and think that once High School is over so is all the so called pettiness that goes with it. So you know, they can continue to act like their sons and daughters. But it's not the same because obviously people don't act like this or that outside of High School. I really really think this is just another thing that people delude themselves about. Honestly, people have this idea in their minds that High School is this distorted caricature of this patented hell designed for us special teenagers. But it's not. It's what life is like concentrated because atleast IMHO you don't get a chance like that again to see so many different types of people thrown into one place and trying to interact/ignore eachother.

I'd like to have a conversation with a person I don't know about something other than SYTYCD (which I love by the way.) I'd like to not feel the need to resort to using either television or superficial means to connect to people. I'd also love for people to stop telling teenagers, this is how I expect you to act, (hate yourself, drink constantly, not being aware of anything besides your own backyard.) and this is how you're going to act. And I'm going to make excuses for you every step of the way, because you're my baby and I most protect you at all costs. It's so damaging in so many ways. We're all walking around with our eyes wide shut into walls we can't see, bashing our heads again again and again.

I just want to talk to people who are conscious of what's going on around them, but it seems like a lot to ask of a lot of people...

psst, I apologize for abusing run on sentences like there's no tomorrow.