School

School by shazie28 @ deviantart
(Anyone else reminded of Matilda?)

During summer break I did a whole lot nothing. The only productive thing I did was find new blogs and start blogging regularly. Wait, I take that back, August was the month I didn't do anything, during July I went to Summer School for g.10 math so that was productive. I was around some very smart people and since Math is not my strong point at all I was feeling less than stellar intelligence wise. Which isn't to say I was necessarily feeling sad, I just felt like "Okay, this is how it is. I'm not stupid, but I'll never be a genius or particularly intelligent". I know it's silly to compare myself to others but it's an old habit that tends to pop up into my mind at times. During August with this whole "not stupid/not a genius" rolling around in my head I started to doubt my abilities to write anything that isn't hot poo.

Then comes school, and because I refused to take any more sciences and I don't have 11 math 'till 2nd semester, I'm in love with all my classes. My brain is pumping and I'm getting excited about discussions I can bring to the table. I got my first World Religions assignment back on Friday. I got 80%, and lost most of my marks on communication. Barrett said he thinks my problem is that I think faster than I can type. He also said that he's impressed with my insight and thinks I'm one of the brightest students in his class(es).My reaction to that was --> :O/=D He has a policy that if he thinks the student tried and didn't rush the assignment that he'll let them re-write it, so hopefully the 2nd time around I can get a 90 something on that paper. In my English class we had to write a streamline of consciousness that stemmed from two short stories that we read. Myself and James (Minor) read ours in front of the class and the teacher liked what I wrote.

Compliments are awesome and are making me realize that maybe I don't suck as much as I think I do when it comes to school. Just don't talk to me about math. I think part of, or most of my fear comes from the fact that grade 6 was the last time I really put effort into school, so I'm worried that when I try and push myself with school that I'll end up with the same results that I've gotten academically for the last 4 years. I know that can't happen but the fear is still there, lurking in the back of my brain. I'm looking forward to the rest of the semester and I'm even looking forward to exams which is odd. Another thing I can't wait to do is a University road -trip. Since we are car free right now, we'd rent a car and myself and my mom would drive around looking at Universities I might apply to next year. My first choice right now would be to go to Ryerson for Journalism, other Universities I might apply to are Wilfred Laurier, Western, and Carleton.

For extra-curriculars I'm getting super excited about Stage Crew. Stage Crew is the behind the scenes people who do lighting, sound, design sets etc. for Westdale's plays and musicals. Stage Crew also includes doing costumes, make - up or being a stage ninja (the person dressed all in black moving stuff between scenes). So there's all these sub-categories and parts of crew that people can be a part of. For this year's musical, they're doing Cabaret and I'm trying to get myself into the costumes/stylist position for the musical. I want to try and learn about lighting and/or sound and do that stuff for the Sears Drama Festival. Then there's Classics which is my other major club that I'm in. I need to start getting my ass in action and start cross-stitching my projects (I'm doing 2) for this years' Conference. Umm, I'm also trying out for touch football and Rugby. I'm going to be a general member of Triune (student council), and SPA (students for political action), and if I find the time do yoga at a studio or at home. OH! And I want to try and go to Romania this summer for two weeks for a Journalism program, more on that later.

-Lady V

So Many Questions

Solve Sundsbo

When you look at this picture what do you see?
I see a beautiful face made up of mostly fake parts, but beautiful all the same.
When you see this picture, why does it have to mean (to most) that you need to match? Why can't you both be beautiful in your/her parallel fake/real worlds?

I mean, it's no secret to anyone how make believe this make up on her face is. But you (probably) still want to match. Why?

Why does the fact that men prefer 10 instead of 2's make anyone feel better? Why is my satisfaction and self-love being defined by men and fake women in the media?

I thank my mother (in all her underwear dancing glory) for loving herself so I could love me.

Just some random (or not so random....) thoughts and my attempt to get them down somewhere before they scattered off.

Adbusters

Dear Valentina (stop wasting your own time)

I have a serious issue of not giving myself the chance to do well in school by holding myself back. I do this by procrastinating (to the absolute last minute). I don’t do homework, I don’t study, I don’t go to class. Which equals a hell lot of bad marks, failing marks, and me having to sign a contract now to go back to Westdale. (Contract as in something saying I won’t miss classes etc. or I get kicked out.)

The fact that I have wonderful parents is only more evident because instead screaming and yelling at me like I think I deserve, we’re talking about what I’m doing wrong and what I need to do to stop and succeed in school.

What I need to do is stop procrastinating. No more I’ll start in 30 minutes bullshit. I’m too smart for this and most of the time I’m just anxious about doing the work so I avoid it. What I need to do now is establish a routine and stick to it and get used to working first and playing later. Another push in the right direction is to put this whole thing up somewhere public so I’m more inclined to accomplish all this.

Wish me luck. And people who know me, say the word procrastinate whenever you see me procrastinating, please.

Goals to achieve by the end of the summer
-start cross stitch return beads
-have my room tidy and organized
-organize French and science binder
-have my sleeping pattern in order (bed by 11:30, waking up by 6:30am)

Goals to achieve during school year
-maintain a 85%-93% average
-balance extra curriculars with school
All year long responsibilities
*classics
*semi-passive member of triune
*rugby 2nd semester
*school newspaper?
*volunteering with journalism related things
*working on weekends
*Model UN
*my blog
-start saving money for Romania trip (Photography/Journalism summer '09)
-maintain a healthy sleeping pattern

Temporary Responsibilities
-Improvathon
-Keep the Beat
-Halloween volunteering