I just want to be blown away into the future right now. This is a huge problem of mine. I get enraptured and lulled and drawn into what will come and tend to skip over what has already arrived. I'm full of anticipation but the guilt I'm feeling is weighing everything else down. I'm consciously yet unconsciously aware of what has to be done but I'm too distracted/lazy/bored to do it. There's more to it than that I know. But I'm continually finding it easier to close my eyes and simplify. I'm told I'm smart but I hear that I'm dumb and I'm falling into old/rusty traps because of this. I think I get a morbid joy from setting myself up for failure, but I don't know why. I imagine again and again and again and again where I can go but I'm failing to take the steps to get there. UGH I need to do my homework, clean my room, write some more, write in my journal again, read read read and live. I'm getting lulled into this restless sleep and I don't care and I'm scared. This probably make little to no sense to you. But this is for me and not for you. How crappy does this all sound? That doesn't matter right now, at least I'm writing. Sigh
There are no words for the joy, anticipation, and excitement I feel right now. Fuck yeah, yes we can!!!!!! I was watching the Colbert and Stewart report and at the end of that, when they announced that Senator Obama was now President Obama. Wow. (Everyone in the room was just like "Huh? Wait, what?!?! Really!!!") I was not expecting at all to react the way I did. I started to sob like no one's business. I was crying so hard to the point where I choked on my own spit or whatever. Charming, I know right? History was made today and I don't even know how to digest the fact that this actually happened. This is the first time in my entire life where I really really wish that I was somewhere in the States right now. It's weird actually cause my neighborhood is totally silent like it usually is. But I'm sitting here, on my computer, constantly checking twitter and my RSS feed, just in total shock but I'm in the mood to dance around in a crowd filled with some type of indescribable energy, hugging strangers as I go. If I have the time for it, I'm totally going to have an Obama party and try to raise funds for something. I'm also sad that I don't have any pro-Obama stuff to wear tomorrow. I'm gonna see if I can DIY something between now and the morning. Earlier I sat on my couch with my mom, both of us in tears as Obama spoke, and holy shit... I just had OMG rolling past my head in constant repeat.
Now hopefully America will continue to make me proud and will vote NO on Prop 8.
There's no way in hell I'm going to sleep at all tonight. I'm way too wired.
OTHER AWESOME THINGS THAT ARE AWESOME
"Rosa sat so Martin could walk, Martin walked so Barack could run, Barack is running so our children can fly." That 86-letter text message is being forwarded from cell phone to cell phone. It began among African Americans, then went viral, posted in various blogs. Exactly when it was first sent, who sent it and how many times it has been forwarded, we don't know. OKAY OKAY SO DURING THE SPEECH WHEN HE WAS LIKE
Valentina= a 18 year old girl with an intense love for life, color and style. My family is my life and I’m having a torrid affair with television and loving every second of it. I like my school and I love my friends and I’m learning to love myself too. I love playing around with clothes but I haven’t found the patience yet to be able to keep up with actual fashion. This is a me blog where I’ll write about my life, my outfits and anything else that comes to mind.
"It is absurd to divide people into good & bad. People are either charming or tedious." — Oscar Wilde)
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