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I just want to be blown away into the future right now. This is a huge problem of mine. I get enraptured and lulled and drawn into what will come and tend to skip over what has already arrived. I'm full of anticipation but the guilt I'm feeling is weighing everything else down. I'm consciously yet unconsciously aware of what has to be done but I'm too distracted/lazy/bored to do it. There's more to it than that I know. But I'm continually finding it easier to close my eyes and simplify.  I'm told I'm smart but I hear that I'm dumb and I'm falling into old/rusty traps because of this. I think I get a morbid joy from setting myself up for failure, but I don't know why. I imagine again and again and again and again where I can go but I'm failing to take the steps to get there. UGH I need to do my homework, clean my room, write some more, write in my journal again, read read read and live. I'm getting lulled into this restless sleep and I don't care and I'm scared. This probably make little to no sense to you. But this is for me and not for you. How crappy does this all sound? That doesn't matter right now, at least I'm writing. Sigh

What to do

What to do.....

Shock,joy,happiness,energy,indescribable emotions...

There are no words for the joy, anticipation, and excitement I feel right now. Fuck yeah, yes we can!!!!!! I was watching the Colbert and Stewart report and at the end of that, when they announced that Senator Obama was now President Obama. Wow. (Everyone in the room was just like "Huh? Wait, what?!?! Really!!!") I was not expecting at all to react the way I did. I started to sob like no one's business. I was crying so hard to the point where I choked on my own spit or whatever. Charming, I know right?
History was made today and I don't even know how to digest the fact that this actually happened. This is the first time in my entire life where I really really wish that I was somewhere in the States right now. It's weird actually cause my neighborhood is totally silent like it usually is. But I'm sitting here, on my computer, constantly checking twitter and my RSS feed, just in total shock but I'm in the mood to dance around in a crowd filled with some type of indescribable energy, hugging strangers as I go. If I have the time for it, I'm totally going to have an Obama party and try to raise funds for something. I'm also sad that I don't have any pro-Obama stuff to wear tomorrow. I'm gonna see if I can DIY something between now and the morning. Earlier I sat on my couch with my mom, both of us in tears as Obama spoke, and holy shit... I just had OMG rolling past my head in constant repeat.

Now hopefully America will continue to make me proud and will vote NO on Prop 8.

There's no way in hell I'm going to sleep at all tonight. I'm way too wired.

OTHER AWESOME THINGS THAT ARE AWESOME

"Rosa sat so Martin could walk, Martin walked so Barack could run, Barack is running so our children can fly." That 86-letter text message is being forwarded from cell phone to cell phone. It began among African Americans, then went viral, posted in various blogs. Exactly when it was first sent, who sent it and how many times it has been forwarded, we don't know.

OKAY OKAY SO DURING THE SPEECH WHEN HE WAS LIKE

"This victory doesn't belong to me... it belongs to you."

I TEARBENDED.

AMAZING AMAZING SPEECH. THIS IS SO EPIC.

LMFAO. The bolded part was an Avatar reference that I couldn't resist re-posting.

WE ARE THE OBAMANATION

Fuuuuuckkkkk

 

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I'm feeling incredibly apathetic right now which is one of the grossest feelings I've had in a while.

Random Recs #2

Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you. The one who turns to his friends and says, that’s her.

this is such a pile of hooey. a) i like being called both beautiful and hot, b) don’t fucking hang up on people if you are so needy that you’re only doing it to see if they call back, c) please never act like a scary stalker and stare at me in my sleep, d) forehead kisses are fine, i guess, e) i’m not a frickin lamp, you’re not “showing (me) off to the world,” i’m right here, you’re not in charge, GOD, f) makeup doesn’t make people prettier or uglier, it’s just color, g) i guess that’s okay, but don’t go overboard, for god’s sake, no one likes a brownnoser, and h) this is something that everyone says when they spy someone their waiting for across the room.
via 24 Free Dinners


"Between a Rock and a Hard Place"

the first video makes me smile and the second video is my new favorite song.

TiLT #8

Credit
1. Bathroom Stories by nebulaskin on deviantart
2. Louise + Park
3. Alix and Felix

Google Reader: I'm subscribed to 113 different blogs and I would not be able to keep up with these blogs without some sort of RSS feed "collector". Since I'm down with Google's plan for world domination, I immediately turned to google reader after I got around to finding out what a RSS feed was. For some reason I would always look at the Subscribe buttons on different sites in apathy. I can't believe I wasted all that time and lost track of countless sites because I was lazy. But oh well there isn't really much that I can do about it now, but I'm really grateful that it's so easy for me to keep up with websites now.


The Hamilton Spectator: Last week, or maybe the week before that, there was an announcement up at my school. The announcement pertained to the Hamilton Spec and how they were looking for a High School student to update their Pulse website weekly. And yesterday I met with this really nice lady and I got the volunteer position! I'm so excited, and even though I'm very passionate about becoming a journalist, I have zilch experience. Now that I have my foot in the door, I can hopefully get myself involved in other things at the Hamilton Spec. Or maybe even other newspapers. Not only did I get the volunteer position but JWS liked me so much that she said she would "personally advocate" for me for me to be chosen for an internship. There's a high chance I won't be able to do the intership because it might be limited to University/College students. But the fact that I got along so well with JWS so quickly was amazing.

My New Tripod: Money makes the world go round and I've been thinking (okay, I've actually been stressing and calculating) about what I want to do, where I want to go and what I want to buy. Annnd how much money I need to get to be able to do these different things. Later this week I'll be doing a "Lust List" post that'll have everything that I want to do/buy on it. A tripod was one of the things on this list. I was walking around LimeRidge and I was supposed to get some credit for my cell phone (I'm on a pay as you go plan) but I saw this neat tripod for sale at Black's Photography so I bought that instead. I really like it, and I'm looking forward to playing around with it and my camera to see what I can come up with. No more dinky 2 inch tripods for me!


ordinary every day sounds: You know those Skullcandy ear buds I was raving about a week or two ago? Welllll I still love them to death but dear god when I'm not adamant about the volume, they kill my ears. So to avoid headaches (or 'cause I left the mp3 player at home in my rush to get to school), or when I don't feel like listening to music anymore, I chose to listen and really pay attention to those every day sounds, especially when I'm on the bus. People talking, cars rushing, wind, leaves rustling, babies gurgling... I'll still take Roisin Murphy over those sounds any day but that fact doesn't make the fun out of listening to supposed "boring" things any less fun. There are so many interesting and infinite details that you can find out about people if you listen closely enough. Also, eavesdropping on conversations on the HSR* is another interesting thing to do. And most of the time, since the people don't know you they don't even bother to whisper.


The Me2We conference: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's the most succinct way that I can describe how I felt after going to the Me2We conference. Oh my god, it was amazingly empowering and positive. I took pictures and recorded videos so I'll be doing a post on what went on at the conference in a couple of days.


SYTYCD America tickets: So guess who got tickets to see the American SYTYCD tour live!?!?!? My mom bought the tickets (for me, my sisters, and herself) on Aug 1st but only told us yesterday. Holy crap me and Veronica screamed and screamed when she told us. We're in the 28th row and we'll be going Oct. 29th. *___________*


sewing machine: I don't even know how to use this thing. But last year when my grandma heard I was interested in learning how to sew, she ordered one and had it delivered to our house. The only thing that sucks is that I'm guessing that she didn't look into what she was buying and the sewing machine seems to spazz whenever someone uses it. But that's besides the point, the fact that my family (despite their gossip-y nature) has such relentless faith in me and what I want to do with my life and what I dream to achieve is something that is completely priceless.


online window shopping: In my opinion, online window shopping is the best and most effective form of retail therapy. I don't have to walk anywhere, I can be in more than one store than once, and because I'm broke in real and online life it's impossible for me to make impulse buys that I'll regret later.


being on Mr. B's good side: B is a teacher at my school that is infamous for being a big meanie. Seriously the man has valid points most of the time but fails to communicate these ideas to students in ways that don't piss them off. So basically whenever he wants people to listen to him, he pisses them off, and the student mouths off at him, or scoffs at him. And then B gets more angry and wash, rinse, and repeat. Anyways, this is the first year that B has taught me before so we have a clean slate. If I ever get frustrated with him I just listen to what he says without a fuss. And in return I'm on his good side, which is pretty sweet.


DIY: In the blog post that I did yesterday I posted a picture of Rumi's DIY customized Zara boots. The same day that I bought the tripod at LimeRidge I also got some lace thigh highs at Sears. The last 3 days I kept thinking that I'd have a really nice outfit if only I had a black dress. And then I saw some ghastly leather pants (that I got from a relative) and had an epiphany for a dress that I could try and sew. Before I was following different fashion blogs, I kept up with a couple different LJ DIY communities and now I have the DIY bug again. I'm excited to try and get this dress out of my head and into my hands.


Any pictures with legs sticking out of things: Any time I see a picture with legs sticking out of anything (bonus points for hosiery) I'm instantly more endeared to the picture. I'm not sure why, but these pictures just make me happy.



*HSR= Hamilton Street Railway = Bus

Random Recs

I've never seen Pretty Baby before but from seeing these pictures alone, I'm going to try and watch it sometime this century. The picture with Brooke Shields and that big floppy hat is very endearing to me. I might try and emulate that picture sometime soon...

Rumi of Fashion Toast fame did some DIY customization, and IMHO it came out really well. *___*. She studded a block of space on her Zara boots. Ugh my shoe collection is in such a sad depleted state, but this is inspiring me to kick my butt into learning how to sew and to customize other items of my wardrobe.

Isn't this girl just the cutest darling? I want to see what she'll look like in 15 years.

The Sartorialist

24 Free Dinners
DUNNA NUNNA NUNNA NUNNA BATMAN!
I wonder if the O-man has seen this?

Whoops

Whoops, sorry for disappearing for the last two weeks. Life's been hectic lately so I've neglected my blog. I'll have some actual content for you guys tomorrow. Until then take Kitty Cat Gemma as my way of saying sorry ;)

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Comme Des Garcons pour H&M

Some of my favorite pieces from the Women's Collection


If you've been anywhere near the fashion blogosphere since August, you've probably already heard of the collaboration between Comme des Garcons and H&M. Recently there was more brohaha over the dress that costs 349$ (?!?), this of course sent waves of anguish through the hearts of fashionistas. How expensive was everything else going to be if a dress was that expensive?

Since CDG is a Japanese, (not to mention H&M's recent expansion in Tokyo) the collection will be hitting Japanese stores in early November. CDG's collection will be hitting all over H&M markets on November 13th. I may take a trip over to the Eaton Centre if I have the money, I'm not sure if the H&M in LimeRidge will be getting any CDG pieces. I have to remember to ask the staff about that next time I'm there.

A full preview into the collection is in Hong Kong's Ketchup Magazine. Online scans can be found here.


Some of my favorite pieces from the Men's Collection.

Where's the Outrage?!?

*Sigh*..........

It's no secret to me that the lives of white people are valued more than the lives of POC (people of color) in Society but that doesn't numb the stinging feeling I get whenever I see another example of this.

On Friday, September 26, the end of a week in which thousands of copies of Obsession: Radical Islam’s War Against the West — the fear-mongering, anti-Muslim documentary being distributed by the millions in swing states via DVDs inserted in major newspapers and through the U.S. mail — were distributed by mail in Ohio, a “chemical irritant” was sprayed through a window of the Islamic Society of Greater Dayton, where 300 people were gathered for a Ramadan prayer service. The room that the chemical was sprayed into was the room where babies and children were being kept while their mothers were engaged in prayers.

Huh, I'd really would love to hear why the Media hasn't been going ape shit crazy over this? This has obviously has a lot more to do with religion than race but I guess the victims of this weren't "American" enough to warrant attention. If this had been a Christian church being attacked by any other group this shit would be making laps around the media circle.

.....sigh

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New Music Muse?

Janelle just might be my new music muse. Her style and stage presence definitely doesn't hurt. Here's a link to her myspace.

Eye Candy #2 {Miscellaneous}

ffffound finds









(Does anyone else remember this game? I used to play it when I was much younger.)



Will Sanders



A Long Day's Journey Into Night










Ellen von Unwerth









Guinevere van Seenus by Paolo Roversi (Vogue Italia Sep '08)

Val's Adventures - Third Installment

"Val's Adventures" are photographic and voyeuristic peeks into my every day life. Basically these are snapshots taken at school at home or anywhere else and I wanted to put them up somewhere. Plus since I'm now Facebook free it's easier for my friends to save pictures they want from me this way.


Ancaster Fair
The Ancaster Fair was a lot of fun. The first hour was a little stressful since I was in charge of babysitting 3 inebriated classmates, but after that, me and Diana went on a bunch of rides and got very very hyper. I'm sure more than one person thought I was drunk because of my crazy giggling. The best part was when we both we're giggling like crazy in the Zipper. While we were waiting in line for something I kept munching on candy. This was of course, not a good idea and I got a stomach ache after going on a couple of rides. We chilled for a bit, saw a crowd gathering around some fist fight, Diana went to the bathroom and saw drama that's more likely to be seen at a club, and I ate pizza.

























BONUS VIDEOS

Ancaster Fair #1 from Valentina RossMottley on Vimeo.

Ancaster Fair #2 from Valentina RossMottley on Vimeo.


Ontario University Fair
The plan was to be home by 7pm but we were pooped by 3pm and decided to bus back to Hamilton early. I went to the Uni fair with my mom, my friend Tiffany, and my two little sisters. When I first got into the hall with all the booths for the different Universities, I was intimediated and didn't really want to talk to anyone. I'm still excited for University but I guess actually going to this and seriously talking to other people (besides my mom and my friends) about it made me realize how soon I'll be going to University. Cue irrational fears. I got over it though and talked to people and learned about different Journalism programs. I also got some free pens, bags, brochures and a t-shirt.

I didn't take any pictures while we were talking to the representatives from the different Uni's but later on when we were walking around T.O. I snapped some pictures of what we got up to.



All those pictures were taken after we left the hall and we're deciding on where to go next.



hehehe Model!Tiffany.








Veronica and Olivia.


This store was pretty sweet. They had insane sunglasses and amazing umbrellas. I wasn't supposed to be taking pictures of stuff but they didn't stop me for a while. Veronica actually found a potential Graduation dress that looks really nice on her.


Part of the window display.










I love this picture!











American Apparel, how you tempt me so. Mom wanted to go to a yarn store so Tiff and I poked around AA while Mom + co. went on their merry way. *Sigh* I'm getting my SIN number after school on Monday and I'm looking for jobs Tue and Wed after school so hopefully I'll have a way to get these clothes (and my Halloween costume!) soon.






Salvation!

Whenever I'm not in Hamilton, it becomes glaringly obvious how many Tim Hortons we actually have. It took us a while to find a Tims in Toronto but we eventually spotted one. And I had my usual order of hot chocolate with a cinnamon raisin bagel with cream cheese. yum.




Sadly, us going home early meant I didn't get a chance to see the Ryerson campus. So this is the only "University" related picture I took.


BONUS VIDEO
*I'm uploading the videos, I'll add them when they're ready.
There is a part in this video where it is shaky as hell. I was passing the camera over to Tiffany and consequently it looks like an extreme ride of some sort.

English Class Shenanigans

Her name is Ndola and she's cute as a button!